“Vincent van Gogh used to eat yellow paint because he thought it would get the happiness inside him. Many people thought he was mad and stupid for doing so because the paint was toxic, never mind that it was obvious that eating paint couldn’t possibly have any direct correlation to one’s happiness, but I never saw that. If you were so unhappy that even the maddest ideas could possible work, like painting the walls of your internal organs yellow, then you are going to do it. It’s really no different than falling in love or taking drugs. There is a greater risk of getting your heart broken or overdosing, but people still do it everyday because there was always that chance it could make things better. Everyone has their yellow paint.” 

 

"Acting like you don’t care is not letting it go."

eating disorder logic:

• i’m lonely i’m going to isolate myself
• i’m hungry i’m going to starve
• i’m full i’m going to eat
• i feel enormous i’m going to go binge now
• i can tell i’ve lost weight i’m never eating again
• i’m happy i’m going to trigger myself
• i’m sad i’m going to pretend i’m fine
• gum has 5 calories no
• ice cream has a million calories i’m going to eat a whole seven pints
• i’ll only eat wheat bread bc it’s health
• fuck health i’m going to purge

“I’m stronger because I had to be. I’m smarter because of my mistakes. 
I’m happier because I’ve overcome the sadness I have known 
and I’m wiser because I’ve learned from my life.” 

Hello 2k14!